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Imposter syndrome fades away

March 31, 2021

Seems to be fading away after having watched videos from Computerphile on fundamentals of programming. Professor Brailsford is awesome. The Python course by Angela Yu and #100daysOfCode is already helping

  • Maybe what I really needed was stories instead of instructions, I enjoy the stories
  • Maybe what I really needed was to learn slow. Takes me around 3 hours to grasp 1 topic, or go through 1 day of code.
  • Maybe what I really needed was to force myself to do one thing at a time
  • maybe what I really needed was to accept that I am not a genius, and it is hard for me to learn new things
  • maybe all I needed to know was I need hard work instead of intelligence this time, maybe I am not that smart
  • maybe consistency is the real key
  • maybe all I needed was to realize I have limitations, accept my limitations and work on my self

I feel like I have knowledge no-one else has, no lady I know in real life or on the internets that knows origins of UNIX or gets excited by them as much as I do.. I'm not an imposter in my knowledge and fascination of Unix. The fascination is real.

I feel like I had really great expectations from myself, and I overestimated how intelligent I am, in other words I overestimated how long it takes me to learn something

Nag is also helping me. Makes me realize how much time it takes me to finish something, and how many times I pass the 1 hour mark and are still 25% done.. Progress is slow. But slow progress is still progress!